Lost... with a compass.....

Argh! Ugh! Blegh! Maybe even a few not so nice words.... or alot of them. I'm in a poor pitiful me mood today... I'm dissapointed, confused, and particularly feeling pretty lost. I do have reason to feel this way but I am wise enough to realize that my life is filled with way more blessings than dissapointments. I am trying to keep that perspective today instead of going all psychobilly (psychobilly is a word Adam made up-  instead of being a hillbilly if someone is acting crazy then they are a psychobilly). No one likes a psychobilly.... so I'm trying not to be one. I know that God has a plan for my life and I'm convinced that his plan is so much greater than mine... I just have to work on using my compass and trusting that He knows which direction I should go. It's hard to do so during the times that I want to go south and he directs me to keep going north.... but I'm going to have to believe that there is something spectacular waiting for me once I get to where he is leading me. Thanks for reading/ listening... it's part of why I can keep the psychobilly attitudes under control-  you all let me vent and give me the support and love I need. See- I feel better already!

Saturday Mornings

Hey.... Hiya.... Howdy even ;)

I love Saturday mornings; don't you? Recently I have began loving them even more due to this routine I have started- I naturally wake up ( no alarm clock needed ) about 8 and take our new coon dog puppy Gizmo out for his morning tata break and say hi to the dogs out back ( yes, tata break! lol I have no clue why I started calling it that ). As they all play outside I start up the coffee pot and make breakfast- I love not having to rush! It seems like every other morning there is somewhere I have to be at a certain time.... but not on Saturday. I can sit on the back porch with my java java and relax or come inside to watch my favorite show The Pioneer Woman and get inspired for the day... either way it's just me doing whatever I want. My hubby usually sleeps in on Saturdays after a late night of coon hunting so the house is usually quiet and instead of turning on the lights I just let the natural sunlight pour in through the windows- my favorite! I guess in reality to some people my routine may seem boring or even a little lazy but to me it is the time in my week that is just for me... a time to think, a time to pray, a time to relax, and a time to enjoy my java java. Speaking of that... I think it's time for that second cup! ;)

Outlet, Outlet, Who Has An Outlet??

Hey..... It's been close to a year since I've blogged..... seems like I blog more when stressed..... why stressed you ask? Oh, that's a whole other blog!

My question is this.... what's your outlet? What's your vice? What do you do to relieve stress? For some people it's alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, sex, gambling.... for the more conservatives it usually looks like food, hidden affairs, shopping, or random acts of poor judgement..... what's yours? I ask this with the assumption that everyone has one... I mean come on... we all do have one right??? My goal is to find one that ACTUALLY WORKS and keeps me healthy at the same time. I know, I know.... exercise! BLEGH! I have heard it over and over that exercise will relieve stress and bladi- bladi-blah..... Ok, if you are stressed, I mean truly stressed, who has the energy to start an exercise routine??

So.... here I am blogging... because I am realizing that writing may be my outlet.... It's always there if I need it... It lets me get things off my chest without a filter... and I can decide whether or not to share it when I'm finished. :) Writing doesn't have a time limit, a season, a price tag, or a health risk..... See, I'm liking this idea more and more as I'm writing! ha

Some people would say to pray and let that be the outlet I need..... to a point I agree with that.... I do think that my prayer time is a time where I can express how I am feeling and let him know each and every thought, worry, stressor, and hurt.... and it is a time that when finished I do feel less stressed, rejuvinated, and hopeful----- (BUT)..... I also think that God gives each of us gifts, talents, and even outlets to provide us additional ways to handle the things of this world. Right?

I have a "keepsake box" that has different poems, thoughts, journals, etc from elementary school to college in it..... It's funny to look through it and see how my writing has progressed over time.... and to see how it has stayed the same. :)  Everyonce in a while I will post a random serious thought on FB and I'm always surprised at the positive responses I get..... so here's my plan: I'm back to blogging. I'm back to getting it out there and leaving it in cyber space somewhere. Follow me if you'd like.... don't follow me if you don't like.... but either way this is my outlet..... WHAT'S YOURS?

K